When can i

Feelings of unworthiness
sleep less nights
searching my future in my dreams
In a timless existance
being with my feelings
i just try to tame the time
and try to made it obey me
It's like a corrida
It stabs me with out any mercy
with out any compassion it throw me
when can i kill that ugly beast

The best day in my life is the
day before i am gooing to die
settling every thingh with this earth and matter
resting in a everlasting peace
There is no  duality
no good nor  bad
I am waiting for that peacefull day
No woks,No worries,No feelings,no emotions,nothing
only a calm emptiness
When can i